On my “To-Do” list for the last few weeks has been an item that continues to remain on the list in spite of my best attempts to cross it off – making our adoption profile. Last time we went through the adoption process, the profile was one of the easiest parts. Sure I had a few fears, but it went quickly and was enjoyable. This time, not so easy…I am guessing a huge part of the reason is that I don’t have a deadline. Last time there was an expectant mother we were hoping to show it to who was coming in on a Friday. We started the adoption process on Tuesday, so we had to hurry! Apparently, I work well under pressure!
You’ve got to admit, though, making a profile is weird…you’re putting together a few pages to be shown to a woman who is trying to decide if you should be the parents for the baby she is carrying in her womb! Wow – overwhelming, much?! Thankfully, I know that ultimately God is in charge and it only takes one expectant mother of the many to pick us. I trust and believe that God is in charge and that it will work out. My striving is just that – striving! I also know that the littlest things can cause a woman to pick a set of adoptive parents – a picture, a common interest, a place they live… Yes, the profile is important, but we have no idea what will stand out – we just need to be ourselves! Still for some reason, I am hitting a wall. What do I include? What don’t I include? There are only so many pages…What is most important? I want to be real, so what represents us best?
I think the hardest part is starting…do you do it in letter form? “Dear Birthmom…” (except she isn’t a birthmom yet…) Okay, try again… “Hello!…” Then what? If it wasn’t so frustrating to hit a wall like this, it would be laughable! It kind of is anyway…if only there was something to record my thoughts as I try to do this!
Maybe it isn’t time for me to work on it, which is why I’m not receiving inspiration. Or maybe, this time, I am just supposed to do one thing at a time. Every little step is productive. So, I decided tonight to pick pictures. After all, pictures are fun. Maybe I should just write a “Profile” to-do list and include all the things that need to be done to complete the profile, then I could cross some things off a list. 😉
One thing that has helped me so far is a sweet reminder from a friend: “you are partnering with God in this endeavor, because no human striving can enlarge your family apart from His will!” He’ll work through my meager efforts on this profile, will give me the words in His timing and will enlarge our family in His perfect timing! After all, His word says that His Power is made my perfect in my Weakness… Here I am, once again, weak (and uninspired), waiting on a powerful (and inspiring) God to lead and guide. Honestly, although it can be annoying to hit a wall, I am so glad that I am, because it means that I am turning every little detail over to Him, saying, “Lord, please guide me and inspire me.”
Have any of you guys had this problem with an adoption profile or just hit a wall when working on a project? What helped you?